Still Feel Strange....

Today is the day that i go to my shop & see her..... feeling very strange... & also feel sad cause she can pretend that nothing has happen before... i can't imagine that human being can change so suddenly... & can't believe in my eyes that she is so fake... today never reali talk to her... & i think she sense something is wrong... Just that i can't pretend that nothing has happen... it still hurt me... when i think about it.... sadly to say that end of nov i'm going to lose this friend forever.. nothing is going to make me forget wat she did to me... betray trust.... will never gain back.... but anyway.. something i was thinking... GOD can forgive those who betray him... Why can't i??? haha... simple ( Because i'm Not GOD )....

Anyway i still will wish her all the best.....& F*** Off in my life.....

Time Will get me HEAL....

Yesterday had been a long long night for me... slept @ about 4 plus am... tearing even when i'm sleeping... Little Angel yesterday night kick alot.. maybe Little Angel Feel that the mummy is feeling upset also.. Felt the kick is stronger yesterday.... when i put my hand on my tummy i actually will feel Little Angel... But just a mild feeling...

I hope i had already learn my lesson that some friends cannot be trusted... & i just wanna end it all.. & start my new life again.... hubby is very worried ytd.. cause scare that i will affect Little Angel...

& also hope that there will be kind & good bosses that will take me in for part time... so i can earn a Bit for Little Angel...

This morning wake up @ 9 plus & tear drop again... maybe the hurt is abit too deep.. hopefully it will heal in time... & i will be a happy wendy & mummy.... =)

So upset today 27/10/2009

Actually i kept this blog is to blog all my happy times.. & not something sad... but i really cannot take it but to blog here...


Today i just found out that my good friend actually betray me... we are actually a biz partner... Everything i do i always care about what she feel... & defend her when people say bad about her.. but was very very upset that she actually stab me @ my back... One of my friend actually call me up to tell me about this... When we decide to end this biz cause is earning not much... i still worry that she can't get any job & worry that she no money... all i do is worry about what she is going to do after this biz close down... but to my horror & least expected... she betray me.. still got one more month when the shop finally close... i dont't know how i will react when i look her in the eyes...

Today when hubby come & pick me up.. i cried in the car... hubby was shock.. i guess i was too upset... cause i dont't knw how to hide my feeling anymore.... how can i not be upset i also dont't know... my friend tell me to take it ez.... BUT HOW?? Every second i think of wat happen... my tears is in my eyes... at first i could not believe what i hear... but the truth is already out... i guess our friendship will really end after the biz closed... i don't want her to be around me anymore.. to think of wat she did to me is too painful to me.. i care & help her so much... this is wat i get in the end??

I hope she is well... & all i can say is Good Bye my friend...

Stretch Marks.... =( & What happen today..

From found out that i'm pregnant until now.... i have countless stretch mark... even when i put cream every night... is just the same... =( & some of the stretch turn red & purple... there is long & short... so sad... don't know after i give birth will it fade away?? Alot of friend say that it will always be there....if lucky maybe will be lighten.... sob sob.... next time will upload some of the photo of my stretch mark.. so that u guys will know how bad it is... =(

Little Angel had been lazy lately... this 2 days not much kicking... but Little Angel is still healthy... cause due to some water leaking... i went to KKH for a checkup...& the doctor let me listen to Little Angel heartbeat....After i hear the heartbeat then i feel relieve... but luckily everything is ok... water bag is not leaking... but gotta do some pelvic exercise... cause is very normal to have some wee wee leaks when u r pregnant.... cause of all the pressure & The weight that Little Angel is in my tummy... But anyway... hubby is very worried today also before i went to the hospital... but now he felt relieve also.. =)

Tomorrow i intend to give myself a off day.. to take a rest & pei Hubby.... =)

Sweet Memories =)

Today too free liao.. go see hubby friendster photo... saw some of our photo that we took in the past... & remember how sweet we are... even till now.. after we married... & now having our First Baby... we r still so Sweet & Loving... I hope that it will last forever.... & i believe that it will... =)

 

( Here R some of our Memories.... Even when we r friend in the past..... )

Bintan Trip... 18 /10 / 2009

Sunday 18/10/2009 Hubby bring me & Little Angel to Bintan for Swimming... feel so relaxing... because of this trip we went to buy my pregnant swimwear.. @ Marina Square Kiddy Palace.. but it cost me $ 79.90.. i feel so ex lor... but no choice lei.. cause tummy is getting bigger so need to buy le.. if not can't fit into the normal swimwear.... this few days Little Angel had been very active.. hehe.. keep on kicking & Boxing my tummy... & guess wat? He Hipcup inside me.. cause i feel the vibrantion... haha.. so cute hor... but always when hubby wanna to feel it.. he stop kicking.. then hubby very upset.. haha... sayang sayang....

This few days something happen in the shop .. Due to the owner have some problem with the contract ...( i don't wanna say wat is the reason here ).. we decided to close down our shop & get back our deposit... that's mean i got no job... so i'm looking for a part time job now.. cause Little Angel is going to come to this world in another 4 1/2 months time... so is a bit stressful... but hopefully me & hubby will pull it thru...

Looking forward for my next check up... is on 16 Nov.... yohoo...

( My swimwear photo :) )

Detail Scanning @ week 20 ( 12/10/2009 )

Today finally went for my 20 weeks detail scanning.. hubby & i have been waiting for this day since my last checkup... we wake up @ 830.. then go eat breakfast @ 850...after that we head for KKH.. reach @930.. Hee not late for appointment... then waited to go in to the scanning room.... we are worried about hubby can go in with me a not.. cause we saw quite a number of hubby waiting outside... then after we saw a couple went in together then we felt relieve... after waiting for about 50 min.. my name is called... hee... our turn is here!!

Went in & the Scanning Started.... when the scanner is on my tummy.. I saw Little Angel was lying flat... n can see the body, face, hands, feet... The sonography scan every parts of the body to make sure that Little Angel is growing well.. everything is good!! & Little Angel Heart is very strong... Hubby & i felt so relieve after hearing that Little Angel is doing very well inside me... keke.. Little Angel was very guai because when the sonography say want me to go walk for 30 min then come back cause she wanna check Little Angel Spine.. cause the position is not good.. Meaning Little Angel Need to turn to the back in order to check... But after 3 min... Little Angel turn By itself... we r surpise.. cause it seem like Little Angel know what we r talking about...

But sadly to say that i had put on 5 kg... so doctor tell me to cut down on eating cause he scare got complication when i gave birth.. so for the time being i gotta watch what i eat in order to stay healthy for me & Little Angel... Hopefully i don't put on anymore... & cut down on sweet drinks... next appointment will be on next month.. to test my sugar level.. so worried... -_-"

The scan lasted 30 min.... Here are the photo of the scan today!! Enjoy!!

( One of the photo , Little Angel is Sucking the thumb =) )

Went Metro Baby Sales 11/10/2009

Today is sunday again!! Yeah... Morning went breakfast with hubby @ Mac... then after that went to Temple to pray... cause mummy say gotta go.. then after that went to Metro in Compass Point.. Hubby found out that there is a sales going on... today is the last day.. so went there to see if we got anything to buy.. & check out the price... Hee.... found so great deal... Hee can't wait for tomorrow checkup... The check up will be @ KKH.... 930am...=)

I upload some of the things we buy... =)

Little Angel First Kick??

Yesterday night we light off @ around 1245 am... but i can't sleep.. so was turning here & there.. so decided to lay flat on my back... then suddenly i felt something moving on the left side of my tummy... but when i try to use my hand to feel it.. the feeling is gone... so i was thinking did little angel just move inside me?? If it's really is moving.. means that is the first kick that i felt !! was a bit shock.. & don't know is it really Little Angel kick, or i'm thinking too much..

I finally fall asleep @ 4 am.. then suddenly 6am hear my grandma alarm clock.. wake up n went to toliet... came back, can't fall asleep again.. untill 645 am... Today i feel so tired... it feels like the whole night i never sleep before.. haiz... don't know when i can fall asleep like i used to be?? Can't wait to tell Doctor on my appointment on mon... hopefully he will give me some pill that is safe for me to eat.. & can get me to sleep well..=)


Now Little Angel is 19 Weeks & 3 Days.....

Have I Change??

This Few days was asking myself have i change?? Cause after i found out that i'm pregnant.. i feel that i begin to distance from my parents.. i don't know what happen... & y i changed so much.. we used to have outing, dinner together.. chat a lot.. but now i only go to my room & watch TV... never find time to chat with them... i feel so bad lei.... I also can't explain why the sudden change? haiz.. this few days anyhow think again... hopefully everything will change to the better... Must Find time to go out with them liao.. :(


& as for my Little Angel... i also anyhow think... maybe too long never take picture for Little Angel le.. so Don't know how Little Angel is doing inside?? haven felt Little Angel Move Yet... That's why worried ba... And also haven felt tummy growing this few days.. but stretch mark alot lor.. even i got put stretch mark cream liao still same.. >_< Waiting for next monday .. going for Detail scan... & also take picture for Little Angel... Looking Forward.... Yeah still got 147 Days to go!!! JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU...