Sucking Hands Non~stop remix..

Benson have been enjoying sucking his finger & Fist... Everyday sure gotta suck it... Lol... even in his yao lan when his pacifer drop... & also second he like to suck is his beannie pillow.. when i burp him.. he suck my hand... haha... so cute la... but this few days.. is been a struggle to give Benson his milk... he keep turning away... don't wnna drink.. even if drink.. it will sure be lots of leftover milk.. Zzzz waste money la... =.= he now love people to carry him liao.. but i try not to carry too much.. if not later too used to it.. then my arm will break... haha...

This few days i realise that Benson don't really wan to be in his yao lan anymore... which is good... but tiring.. cause need to coax & pat him to sleep... so now normally i will rest with him together on my bed while he take nap..

Benson 3 Month 3 Days Old

Today went to expo with Hubby & Benson... wah... the carpark so full lor... luckly we get a lot... ^^ & Also ytd we went to ikea.. Finally i get to eat my meatball.. hehe... =) Yummy... have been craving it since I'm preggy with Benson... haha... After that we bought Benson a small little bear... look quite cute & light.. at first benson feel so weird when hubby take the bear to play with him... haha.. his face look so cute lor... eyes so big... =.= This afternoon finally he played with it a while.. Hmmm... me & hubby is getting excited that our flat is coming... i hope it will be ready soon... ^^

So hard to get Benson to sleep tonight.. think is due to play too much... Zzzz.. till he keep waking up & cry... =.=" Hopefully will be fime later....

Benson is so funny... 3 Month 2 Days Old

Benson is so funny this morning... he took up his shirt to chew & suck... when i saw this.. i was a bit shock.. i didn't know that he can do this... haha... he seem so hungry when sucking on his shirt... ( Our Little Hungry Monster )

Breastfeeding...

=( Now i started to feel really bad about me not giving Benson any Breastmilk... i'm feeling so bad & regretted that i did not carry on to breastfeed him when there is still supply, even when is just a little... how i wish that time will turn back when Benson is just born... sigh... i hope is not too late... tmr i will try to latch Benson on.. & also will be gettin back my breastpump & try pumping... Arrr... i hope my milk supply will come back... no matter what i will try... i feel bad as a mummy.. never give Benson the best... & i know that is good for his health & yet i given up... Hmmm... let's try... a mummy in forum say that is still possible.. but is a tough road... i hope i can overcome everything for Benson... =) Wish me luck ya mummy... i really hope that my milk will come back...

Benson Learning to Flip & Bonding

Benson is now 3 months old... He last night was learning to flip on his tummy... but failed after trying a few times... can see that he tried real hard... Hopefully he can flip by himself soon.... =)

Lately Benson have been looking @ my breast... & wanted to suck it.. think he thinks that i still have milk in me... haiz =( i feel so bad lor... cause he now wanted to suck liao.. but i got no more breastmilk left in my breast... haiz.. i feel so bad as a mummy... when i lying on the bed with Benson.. he will start to use his hand to touch it... haha.... was quite surpise la... cause i stop when he is only 2 weeks old... now he already 3 months old.. still can know that the breast can be suck... haha... then i got no choice... just given his pacifier.. then say that mama got no more milk milk left liao... but in my heart i feel heavy & stress suddenly... feel that i have not done enough for my little boy..

Bonding : I feel that when me & my boy is lying on the bed together wanted to nap.. he will always smile @ me when i look into his eyes... i feel that we got very strong bonding between us... which i feel very happy... that's mean my time staying @ home.. & our choice that i take care of Benson at home is right... ^^ i can feel it whenever i talk to him.. smile to him... he will always reply back to me... he is such a cute boy... I love him deeper & deeper everyday.. cannot imgine my life without him...

Benson 3 Month Old

Actually tmr Benson is 3 month old... Hehe... so happy that my boy is growing up fast.... =) Now Benson now how to hold things more stable with his hands... but still he can't control where his hand is going... but is consider quite fast learner already... ^^ today granny give him a toy to hold... just hold a while only then the toy drop liao.. haha... so cute la... Benson also know how to suck his 2 fingers already.. but most of the time he suck the whole fist.. hehe... greedy boy.. when me & hubby is eating infront of him.. he will always look at us.. we can see that his mouth big big.. like wanted to eat.... think when Benson is 6 months old.. i think we will have no problem feeding his soild liao... haha.. which is good... looking forward for his every month changes... everyday is something new for me & Benson...

Had been very tired lately... but is ok.. i'm still happy... whenever i'm tired or upset... i will think of hubby & benson... They given me the strenght to go thru everything... Hubby have been busy this few weeks... so poor thing la... sayang sayang.. Muack.... Hugz... He is working hard every month to support me & Benson.. & of course for our upcoming house in punggol... Look forward to our house... so excited la... !! Finally got our own space to relax....

Ytd & today have been busy changing my blogskin... finally get it done by today... thanks to sherlyn... cause she have taught me alot with this blogger thing... hehe... i will go find a more nicer one soon... so just keep a lookout... ^^ Have Upload some song that i like... The first song & second song.. is played when me & hubby got married... so pls enjoy... hope all of u like it...

Benson 2 Months 3 Week 6 Days Old

First time have a proper picture taken together

Does Benson look like me??

Yeah... Benson is going to be 3 Months liao... 1 more day... hehe... counting down for my little boy ^^... Today went to supermarket with granny... Finally.... Benson wanna to be in his baby carrier... hehe... Phew... luckly he never fuss in there... think he love to his face facing out to look around when i walk... hehe... think the carrier is too comfy... he fall asleep in there... holding one of my finger... =) cute boy la... now he wana to be in carrier liao... meaning i can bring him out on bus & Mrt... which i cannot do it when i bring his stroller... is too heavy... but the trip must only for a short while.. cause it can be quite hot in there in such a hot hot weather in SG ... -_-" keep on sweating & sweating everyday... Even Benson is affected by the weather... He always look forward to his bath in the afternoon... before nap.... Nowdays everytime when i feed Benson... he will start to hold onto my finger when he drinks his milk... think he is training his holding skill now... which is faster then i tht.. i'm very proud of Benson... He is consider is very fast learner... =)

Benson Journal

~ Drink 160ml of milk

~ Lve sucking his hands & arms

~ Love to shout & cooing

~ Smile alot

~ Playful

~ Love holding my finger when i'm feeding him...

~ Love to listen to songs

Benson love to play...

Let's blog something to push down all the unhappy blog below... it will only make all of us upset... & realise that how people can change from good to evil... but anyway... i still got a happy life to lead... so no point getting angry over such things anymore... is just not worth it.. think because they just don't understand what kind of person we r , We mean no harm in the first place.. & no ill intention... that's y i should forgive them... being forgiving will make my life better...

( We will know the work of forgiveness is complete when we experience the freedom that comes as a result. We are the ones who suffer most when we choose not to forgive. When we do forgive, the Lord sets our hearts free from the anger, bitterness, resentment and hurt that previously imprisoned us.

Most times, however, forgiveness is a slow process.)

Nowdays Benson is more playful... his nap is not that long anymore... it depends.. so i think all mummy's always expect the unexpected...Now i will put him on his tummy sometime.. to make his neck stronger... but just for a while... hehe... & Now He love cooing & shouting when we talk to him.. he love us to follow his shout... & he will try different kind of laugh & wanted u to follow him... Hmm... nowdays baby is so smart.... when i play the song for him to listen.. u can see that his leg & hand moving here & there... just like he wanna dance... dance like an angel in my heart... & Of course he will always be our little angel... Every time i see Benson... all the unhappy moment just wash away... His smile makes my heart melt... & also everyday is looking forward for hubby to come home & spend time with us... we r a happy little family..

Benson 2 Months 3 Week 2 Days Old

Now Benson seem to love his beannie pillow... he keep licking on them -_-" so dirty... just cannot stop it... even when i take it away from his mouth.. 5 mins later will be back in position again... haha... now he also suck his hand more liao... i think most baby will go thru this part when they r growing up... Now his temper is more hot liao... like little tiger... Roar!!!! when he wan milk... must make fast fast if not he will cry... or when he drink half way.. u cannot just pull out to burp him... u can see that he will be damm angry... haha.... He love watching Tv alot... even while drinking milk... he stare @ the TV as well... nowdays baby know how to enjoy life ya... ^^ I download some song from Iphone app... for him to listen... he love it alot... when i on the song... his hand & leg will move... like he is dancing with the song.. so cute... =) My love for him grew day by day... ^^ even sometime i feel tired... but still happy to take care of my little boy.... now i can't bear to let other take care of him liao... i rather be more tired & take care myself... i always don't like to depend on other people... cause they won't treat the same as how a Father & a Mother treat him... & love him like we did... =)

Outing with Mummysg Mum @ Marina Square

Benson love to play with mummy ^^
He love to look at his own hand...

Still sucking hand...

Sleepy eyes... Zzzz

Today i enjoy my outing with some of the mummies from Mummysg... ^^... we had a high tea buffet... hmm.. the choice of food is quite alot... just that the taste is not that nice... =( I finally get to meet sharonk after so so long that we know each other... this is our first meet up... haha.. cannot imagine.. her gal is so chubby liao... =) today Benson had been a very good boy... he smile whenever people talk to him... & took his nap while i'm eating.... after the meet... i went over to hubby office to find him... then we went home together... ^^

Blur me.. i got bring camera but forget to take picture... -_-"

Benson 2 Months 2Week 4Days Old Video

Benson Love to be carry this way & Licking his hand With lots of noise.... =)

@ Times he love to smile, play & complain @ the same time... hehe... Cute !!

Benson is on his tummy.. but... Still... he lick his hand... no matter wat.. he won't give up...

Having Fun with Iphone... Benson Photo....

Will I be able to do it??

Playing with some of the Iphone Photo App for Mag

I'm wondering this topic in my brain for so long... haha... will i be able to get back in shape?? Haiz... have been going swimming... but still feel that i'm so lazy sometime... don't know how to kill all the lazy bug in me... today drink a bottle of chicken essence to keep me going... but is it true that it will make people more awake by drinking it?? Hmmm... I missed the body that i had in the past... but of course i cannot expect much after birth.... but i just wanna lose all that fats around me... they r making me lazy & tired everyday... i feel heavy... hehe... just go one step at a time ba... cannot force also... just try to do what i can... JIA YOU !!!

Benson yesterday night was quite cranky... don't know y also... i carry him, put him in yao lan, put in cot, put on my bed.. he also cry... after milk liao same... Haiz... maybe is just a stage that baby have to go thru... this morning also cranky.. but after a shower he is much better... & can play liao... maybe he feel the same like us... HOT HOT HOT!!! The weather is damm bad lor.. everyone is getting sick... hopefully i don't get the sick bug... got lazy bug is enough liao... another sick bug come i will sure die... haha... have been feeling like got cough lei... must cut down on cold drinks...

SianZzz... Hubby is working this Saturday...=( meaning.. only me & benson will attend the gathering with all the mummy... But will go find hubby once i'm finish with all the mummy... hopefully benson will be guai guai that day... don't cranky.. if not i sure panic... Zzz... i think this is wat all mummy scare... going out then baby keep crying... so Pray for us ok... hehe...

Benson 2 Months 2 Week 2 Days Old

Peep To see if i'm around....

Finally he sleep...

Benson have been a really good boy lately... hehe... as a mummy i'm proud of my boy la.... His milk time is not as often already... sometime about 5 ~6 hours... depends... Yesterday he don't really wanna to nap... so carry him out from the yao lan & play with him....after a while of playing... he decided to nap on my bed... feel so happy watching him getting to sleep la... hehe... he will still peep on me to see if i'm around.... -_-" Then finally he slept.. then i take my nap beside him.... After 1 hour later... he cry for milk liao... so fast... -_-" His last feed was about 11.30pm last night... & guess what??? He never wake up in the middle of the night for feed... untill 7am in the morning.... WOW.... i was a bit surpise..... maybe he grow up liao... so needed more sleep & will sleep longer.... hehe... But i'm still a lazy mum la.... still feel sleepy everyday.... feel like no energy like that... haiz... i should be more hardworking i feel....

Benson Journal :

~ Still 160ml of milk

~ Dislike drinking water

~ nap lesser sometime

~ when angry will make noise & complain

~ talk alot now with his baby talk...

~ Know how to shout more

~ dislike people to carry him to sleep

My 1st Mother Day & 1st Wedding Anniversary...

Night Out @ Esplanade

The SteamBoat Mother's Day Dinner ^^

Today is 9 May 2010... Is the second Sunday of May... which is what we call Mother Day...haha... & is my very 1st Mother Day in my life... hmmm..... was telling hubby this morning when we r having our breakfast in BK ^^.... if so weird lor... cause first time celebrate mother day for myself ( As a Mummy ) with Mum & Sis... haha... Hubby say there is more years to come... this is only the first one... haha... feel silly.... We celebrate one day in advance... Actually wanna cook some nice dish for mummy.... but she wan to eat steamboat... so we have our steamboat dinner @ home... my mum & i don't like to Q up for table just to have a dinner so decided to eat @ home... I love Steamboat lor... can eat so much... haha... -_-" I feel so bless lor... gather my parents & sis & of course Hubby... having dinner together... But Benson was sleeping when i eat my steamboat.. haha... Evil Me.... go & put him to sleep then i eat... haha.... Hmmm... was wondering... When Benson is old enough to go childcare... wat will Benson Be giving me on Mother's Day?? A drawing card?? hehe.... still far from now... haha... so we shall see wat my first mother day present will be when the time come.... ^^

Today is also Our 1st Wedding Anniversary... Me & Hubby after dinner today went for a walk @ the Esplanade... so long we haven been there.... feel so nice walking around & sit by the river & chat.... even is just a very simple celebration... but i feel so bless & happy.... Sometime i feel that... no need to have very big party or a very very ex dinner... sometime just do something simple will keep us happy.... ^^ I Think that is wat LOVE is all about... is not about the place , Location , Price.... But is about the person that u go out with... M i right?? I love u Hubby... Muack.. Happy 1st Wedding Anniversary... !! hehe.. more to come.... ^^