Jaudice..... & Day 2 with Benson....

Second Day... we went to polyclinic to check on Benson Jaudice... When the nurse took blood on his heel... i feel so emo... i nearly cried.... =( feel so heartache seeing him in so much pain.... & the nurse still say he got no much blood... but hopefully the sample that she collect will be enough for the test... but in the end luckly is enough.... His Jaudice Level Day 1 is only 108.... but Second day shoot up to 180.... today went to KKH for another check again... =( is 245.... Doc say that he needed to admit to do the UV light.... meaning he won't be coming home with us... =( me & hubby feel so sad that we need to leave him there.... but no choice... cause if jaudice gets too high will be danger....Tmr will be going to KKH again.... hopefully Benson can go home... but hubby was thinking hospital might wan Benson to stay one more day... so we'll see... We missed our Benson Darling....

Last night Benson got colic.... & i feel so bad... he cry & cry whole night... never sleep... then the nurse in KKH help me to burp him... after that i don't knw why suddenly my tear start to drop.. i just feel bad a a mother... the feeling is like i never do my part & take care of Benson well... hubby sayang me & say is ok.. we r still learning... there is always a first time... so now we already know how to do it... i don't know y m i getting so emo nowday... i hope it won't get worst... think is because me & hubby is very tired ba.... & Arrr.... Benson mouth there the skin is all peeling... cause is very dry... look so painful ... i will apply lotion for him once he is home from KKH...

After KKH we head home for a rest.. haven been sleeping for 3 days already... so is very tired... got panda eyes... =( but is all worth it.... Hubby was very helpful also.. i'm very happy that i have such a understanding Hubby.... ^^ When we reach home after KKH we finally get to sleep a few hours.. after our nap... we went down to KKH again to visit our Love.... =) Hope he get better soon... Due to this reason i will start my post-natal massage tmr... hopefully is worth wat i'm paying & also is time to pamper myself after such a long long time....

Now confinement has start for me.... but actually not really the old old type la... cause i still having cough so i need to wash my hand very often.... i don't wan Benson to get it from me... as he is still very young i don't wan him to get sick... i start to wear mask at home when i feed him or get close to him.... my back have been very painful... due to my backache problem & also the Epi cause backache also...

As for the Breastfeeding.... i got try latch Benson on when in hospital.... is really very hard.... & now i giving him FM... but today my breast got painful feeling... tmr will try again.. hope that i can give my Benson the best.... & hope my milk will come...

Lastly i hope that my cough will recover very soon as is really affecting my body alot... Stitches is getting very sore also due to the cough... i hope is not infection..... i wan it to heal faster... but today the pain got worst... =( i got bad feeling about this...

Happy Birthday To Our Little Angel ( Benson )

Happy Birthday to Baby Benson.... ^^

Here r some update on what happen that day.....

24 Feb 2010....

Was packing Benson things & his cot... Doing some housekeeping.... then after that went toliet.... got some discharge with a tiny dot of blood.... 3.45pm... called hubby & KKH.... the nurse say if no contraction no need to admit first.... so hubby & I decided to wait.... after that hubby off work liao... 7 pm went to fetch MIL & her frenz to go Sentosa Casino.... walk walk.... see see... after finish... we walk back to our car... i feel that my tummy is a bit cramp.... but tht is because due to the walking... We went for dinner then head home.... as normal.. i surf net & decided to go bed @ 1.45am... then feel tummy cramp & also Backache.... 2am decided to wake hubby up.... 2.30 went to KKH.... was put on CTG... the contraction is every 5 mins liao.... & nurse check say that i'm already 3cm... so we went to the Delivery Suite.... get change... then after that about 9.30am.. the pain is so painful that i wanna pull my hair out liao... then hubby say i better take Epi.... 9.45am inject Epi.... then haha... fall asleep.. till about 2.30pm... nurse say that i'm already 9cm.. @ 4pm.. nurse say can start to push.... -_-" keep pushing for about 1 hrs 15 min liao.. but baby still don't wan come out... & i got no more energy... =( nurse ask doc to come.... then finally Baby Benson is out @5.30pm...

Due to i'm in so much shock... i can't sleep @ night.... because i keep having flashback of what happen earlier.... But was happy that he is very healthy.... & of course he look lovely.... ^^

First day home is always tough.... me & hubby have sleepless night as.... Benson is very demand on his feed.... he get hungry very easily... so we have been awake almost the whole night.... Now i know how hard it is to be Mummy & Daddy....

Here is Benson Photo.... Enjoy....!!

Is it Time Yet??

Just now was washing fan, vacum floor.... set up Our Little Angel cot.... suddenly feel like something leaking.... went to check... a little bit of blood.... Just a tiny bit only... so i just need to see how later liao.... now... back a bit sore... but still no contraction yet... so i think there is still time before Little Angel is out...

Just called KKH ask-a-nurse service.... the nurse tell me that it might be mucus.... instead of water bag leak... cause she say that mucus is sticky... but water bag is reali like water kind... so she say that i can still stay home until i feel pain or contraction then admit.... haha... maybe Little Angel wanna come out early then expected.... ^^ granny just open a coconut for me to drink... yummy... must drink first lor.. if not suddenly wan birth liao cannot drink.... hmmm... tonight hubby wanna bring me out lei... don't know i can make it ma??? hope that i dont have contraction yet... if not... haha... will have to rush to KKH from sentosa liao....

39 Weeks 2 Days....

Today is 39 Weeks 2 Days.... throat have been feeling alot better ^^ due to the medicine that i bought yesterday.... hee... so happy that it work for me... =) flu also getting better... still got a bit blocked & runny nose... but wat more can i expect?? hee.... today become miss piggy liao lor... woke up @12plus pm... zzzz i have sleep for so many hours liao... later going to clean my room & put on the mattress sheet for Our Little Angel.... today tummy feeling cramp..... on & off... so i never really bother that... as long as it don't get too painful.. should be ok liao.... ^^ Little Angel have been moving alot lately.... maybe Little Angel know that is about time to meet mama & papa liao... hee.. so excited & happy... cannot imagine tomorrow 2 am i'm going to admit to KKH for Induce liao.... =) Finally the moment have come... after such a long long wait.... i have call my post natal massage yesterday to inform that i will be giving birth this week... so she can arrange her time to come my place for my first massage session.... i hope that this massage will really help me get back in shape faster.... -_-" & i hope it works for me.....

Hee... yesterday i'm so silly lor... dream that i have lots of breastmilk for our Little Angel... so much that i need to keep pumping & store them.... & my face was smiling away... haha....

Looking forward to tomorrow.... hee.. !!

39 Weeks 1 Day

Have been really weak & sleepy... Due to the medicine that i have been taking for the past few days.... flu is getting better in the morning.. but when nights come... my nose is all blocked... -_-" i hated it... & also sore throat got from bad to worst...Lose my voice... =( is really painful.... i even scare of drinking water... i never had so bad sore throat before in my life... i guess this is the worst.... at night i needed to breath thru my mouth due to the blocked nose... so my throat is really dry....Zzz & because of dryness.. it add on to the pain... =( Just now went to AMK to meet the cord blood donation lady... have done all the paper work liao... get everything sign... so no more worries.... just hope that my cord blood will be useful to people who needs it.... ^^ after meeting her... went to NTUC to buy young coconut... hope it can smooth down my throat before i deliver Little Angel... ZZzz.... was telling hubby yesterday... if my throat carry on like this on Friday.. i think i will lose all my voice after all the screaming & pushing.... haha... just now also went to get new medicine to see if it works for my throat... Let's pray that i will get better by tmr... -_-" Little Angel had been very healthy... & active... hee.. keep moving here & there... I think i will missed this feeling after Little Angel is out... Hmmm.. don't know i will get emo a not when i see & hug Little Angel... ^^ because finally after so many month... Me & Hubby is able to meet our Little Angel... Hope that it will be a chubby baby... hee... ^^ Looking Forward... but prefer without my sickness... haha... Lately having more discharge already.. think is because labour is very near liao...

On Sunday i finally open up the cotton roll to roll it into a ball... haha... i feel like is never ending rolling it... seem so long sitting on the bed doing it... haha... later tonight will open up Little Angel Mattress to air it.... then tmr i will put on the mattress cover & the protecter.... things r almost done liao... but still feeling not very in the mood due to my damm throat... haiz... later will nap again... just took medicine.. so will get sleepy very soon liao.... ^^

The Very Long Long Cotton Roll....

Our Car have been send to the workshop ytd.... =( so sad to see our car been tow to the workshop... but no choice.. just hope that on thrusday we can collect the car.. & also hope it won't cost a bomb.... Zzzz.... sayang hubby....

38 Weeks 5 Days Last Check Up

Today is Finally my last checkup liao... ^^ hee so happy... !!! My appt is actually 2.45pm.. but the nurse ask us to come earlier because Doc Tham got a delivery @ KKH later.... we reach about 1.40pm... but -_-" still waited for so long.... took my urinal test... & also blood pressure... nurse say my blood pressure is high... so need to rest a while & take again... after a while take again.. still high.... =.= .... then nvm.... went in to see Doc Tham first.... Zzz when is my turn is also about 2.50pm... don't understand y they ask me come early & wait.... Zzzz... but nvm... Doc Tham finally did a cervix check for me... i try to relax as much as i can.... cause i know when i'm tensed... i might feel even more painful.... but still.... i feel pain... after the cervix check... Doc Tham say that my cevix is already soften... but not dilated yet.... & also did a scan for me... Little Angel today position is not good for weight measurement.... so just estimated.... weight about 3.4kg plus now... but Little Angel head is still not engaged yet... but Hubby & I decided to go for induce on next coming Friday... which is 26 Feb 2010.... so i will admit to KKH on 26 Feb 2010, 2am.... i asked Doc Tham if i needed to avoid any food ma.... he smile & say... just eat whatever i can & wan now... hee... & make sure that i have a very nice & full supper before my admit.... ^^

Today also told Doc Tham about my flu & cough... he give me some medicine... & just taken the medicine.. makes me so sleepy now.... hee.... hope that my flu & cough will be fully recover before Fri.... =) today i already feel much better liao.... so happy... but =( tonight hubby gotta go back office to work @12.30am... so sad... means he is not able to pei me sleep at home liao... cause his work will finish @ 5am... Zzz... Sob =(

Still got things not prepare yet.... must make use of this few days to re-check & repack liao... must make sure i don't miss out anything... sian... the baby bonus form seem so hard to fill in... must ask hubby to help liao... my hospital bag is already all pack... onli need to set up the baby cot & let the mattress air... put bedsheet.... & clean my room as much as i can before i bring Little Angel home.. cause i don't wan any dust to be in the room... ^^ So now looking forward to Fri liao... counting down really start now liao.... hee... must rest as much as i can this few days... & also i hope hubby can get more rest also.... hope he will not get so tired when Little Angel is out.. cause pity & heartache him lor... he need to work & at the same time take care of baby & me... =( Sayang hubby.... Muack.... Hubby & Little Angel I Love u Both!!!

This Photo is taken Ytd Night... Big Tummy...

38 Weeks 4 Days... Flu & Fever =(

From yesterday till this morning 3 am... i'm having fever on & off... it has been a really tough for my body to take... Backache & also whole bodyache also... i think is due to the flu & fever.... =( Fever got really high yesterday @ 3 am.... my thigh have no strength to get myself up for toliet.... i really hope that i will recover soon.. cause i scare that i will be too weak if i m in labour with this kind of condition... -_-" I tried not to take too much panadol... cause i scare that it will affect my contraction if the real labour come... & scare that will affect Little Angel...hmmm... i hope is i think too much... Yesterday night tummy was feeling more painful & mens cramp is more painful too... but luckly it stop after a while... Hubby was so sweet la... he apply cold towel for me... but don't know y my tears start rolling liao... think because too xin ku le....then i wake up to eat medicine.. then feel much better liao... sleep till 12 plus pm today.. wake up feeling better but still weak... just took a shower & taken my flu medicine.... hope i will get better soon....




Tomorrow will be another appt checkup with Doc Ben... hope that everything will be ok.. & also hope that this will be the last checkup... hee... ^^ can't wait liao... if everything is still in our plan.... then we shall see Little Angel by next week liao... can't wait... but i hope my sickness will be gone by then... i so scare that my condition will affect my labour... Finally called the cord blood donantion liao... but Sat they r onli on half day... & also due to my sickness... i don't wanna travel to KKH... so i will be calling them again on Mon... they was saying that if on my Big day if the nurse send me to normal ward to wait for my delivery i still can sign all the document... i really hope i can donate my cord blood in order to save other people life... because if on the big day i was whole day in delivery suite... mean i cannot sign anything liao... =( Let's pray that things will turn out well...