Benson's First Bowling Session..

We realize that Benson have this love @ first sight for Bowling.. We don't know why.. But he is very in love with this game.. & He Watched Bernard Bear ~ Bowling .. & other bowling video which we can find in youtube...

So! We bring him for the real bowling.. Since we already try phone games, & toy bowling.. So we think is about time to intro him for the real game.. =) Me & Hub love bowling too.. The last one we went is when Benson is celebrating his 1st Birthday.. Time flies... Now he is 2years 10 months old.. ^^ We didn't want the kiddy bowling which they cater for younger children.. Because Ben & I wanna join in the fun too.. So we took the adult lane.. But when it comes to Benson turn.. The side guard will be up.. To make sure his ball don't drop to the side... Means 90% will hit the pin kind.. Haha.. The lightest ball we could find for normal lane is " 6 " .. But of course we helped him to place the ball on the starting point first before Benson use his hand to push it... =) Is fun.. Benson will cheer for us when is our turn.. He will say " Jiayou Jiayou" Haha.. Super funny... Very supportive...

When is time to leave the bowling place.. Benson get so upset that he threw tantrum on the spot... & he cry non stop for 20 mins... But luckily after a while he stop.. We were very stress up when Benson start screaming & crying away.. Think those stares from strangers does make things worst.. I guess..

While having lunch Benson fell asleep in his stroller.. Which given us extra time for some coffee & chat.. After Benson woke up.. We went to wild wild wet.. Is renovated.. We went in at about 4.30pm.. Till 6.30pm.. Benson had meltdown again when we wanna leave.. Cry for a little while.. Then fell asleep on our way home..

All I can say that is a fun & good bonding event.. & is also a little stressful.. =) But afterall is still ok..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Books of Miracle

Sometime I wish that there is a miracle book that teaches me how to be a mother or even a parent.. Sometime I don't even  feel that i'm fit to be one.. This week has been a super tough week still.. Lots of scolding, screaming, Benson crying.. That's when " Discipline " comes in... To be very honest i really Hate dislike to use Discipline.. I think almost all the parents won't like it... That is always the last thing that we can think of because we could not handle the situation & is getting out of hands... I really don't know what had happened... Benson has been really handful lately... It has started from last week... Sometime I'm not angry with him.. But I'm very upset... Very heartache... That why I don't even know how to make my son listen to me... I use explain, soft talk, scold, even cane.. Nothing seem to work.. My heart bleeds.. I know Benson is hurt too.. I mean his feelings.. & Mine too.. Hub Ben used to be the one who is super cool about it most of the time.. & This time even the most coolest man in the house is getting angry with Benson tantrum... I know is very hard for anyone to imagine here.. But I really hope that i will be able to handle this in a better way.. & to be more patience with him.. Sometime I just feel lost.. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel... Every night I go to bed thinking that I will sure be a better day tomorrow.. A better start for everyone.. But when the day start.. It seem endless.. I even have the fear of bringing him out.. Yes... I'm crazy... My friends all told me that all parents been thru this... I really don't know what else can I do to change it to the better... I missed the days.. We are all good... Happy Parents, Happy Child.. Missed those days when i do not have to struggle with Benson tantrum in public or even my mum place or home.. Yes I'm tired.. Mentally, Depress.. I just wanna rant..

Strength Is all I need

God give me strength to make it through this day. God give me strength to find another way. God give me strength to see what need be done. God give me strength to see my only one. God give me strength to fix what needs to be. God give me strength so I may clearly see. God give me strength and lead me on my way. God give me strength for I need it more each day.

 

It has been a really tough week.. Benson is down with flu & cough.. Cranky, whines alot.. & even threw tantrum, When scolded he will point his fingers to the door asking me to get away or get out.. Yes.. Is hurtful to me.. But I know that he didn't mean it & he doesn't understand what he just did.. Is a tiring week.. mentally.. At times when i get really angry.. Instead of smacking him I will leave him at one corner in the living room & i walk away to cool down.. i really don't like smacking him.. But sometime i really had no choice.. He demands me to stand up, sit down, or move here & there... which I really dislike this! Whatever I do is not to his liking.. He will just snap & throw tantrum again.. I did try using explaining, soft talk.. It all doesn't work.. Till the most last % of patience i had with him.. Sometime I even wonder.. Is it because my parenting skill sucks? Am i really that bad? Well.. I didn't know & i know i will never get an answer for that.... No one say that parenting is easy task.. But I do try to give my best.. I'm not perfect in any ways.. i'm human.. I have my bad times.. I had good times too.. I hope this rough path will be over soon.. Just needed some space to rant.. & the only place i could think of without using my voice to shout at anyone.. without showing my temper.. Is to use my fingers to type with this keyboard.. writing every bit & pieces in here...

Visiting The Clinic

Today is Benson turn to visit the Doctor for his flu & cough... Because last night he is coughing badly during his sleep... Waiting time is long as usual.. Benson spotted the new wall sticker in the clinic.. Is Robot! I love the colour of the robot too.. =) Doctor given cough , flu & phelgm medication.. Hopefully Benson will get well soon.. My poor boy..

Cute & Colourful Robot Spotted.. ^^

Still so happy.. =)

Self taken..

Thumbs Up!

Benson had master the hand sign for Thumbs Up.. He will say Good when showing me his little thumb.. haha.. Which really make him look super cute.. Sadly to say that Benson is down with flu & cough.. So he is now having his school holiday much earlier than others.. Hope he get well soon... =) & Update for my cough.. My cough is still super bad.. & the worst only happened at night while i sleep.. Every middle of the night I will woke up because i was coughing so badly & it makes me vomit.. Been a few night that i have not been sleeping well... That's why afternoon I will nap with Benson.. Just taking some rest... =)

Checking if he is doing it right.. LOL...

Finally I can do Thumbs UP

Having a super muscle ache due to my first 8.3km run last night..

Went to Mum place on Last Sunday... Benson didnt take any nap at all.. =.= I was super tired.. Due to lack of my sleep because of my cough..

That's the reason why my mum place is so cooling...

Acting cute again..

Went Changi City Point for dinner.. & trying to find my sports stuff.. But sadly.. I can't find it.. Luckily Sis ytd went out to look for it.. & She bought it!... Thanks Sis.. !

Having dinner at Changi City Point...

Don't know why he covering ears...

I can be so Vain..

Don't know why sometime I can be super vain... Keep taking my own picture when I having a good hair day.. haha.. & I did my own perm just by tying my hair till it dry.. Haha..

Do note that photo showing in this post is super "Vein" me.. So pls bear with me & Be Prepared!

 

 

 

Mr Sun is finally here!

Mr Sun decided to come out on Wed! After so many days of raining.. Morning I started to pray for good weather because I'm heading out for jog.. =) Then after Benson came home from school.. Lunch, Shower, nap as usual.. After he woke up.. I was thinking since Ben is on late shift & weather is so good.. Shall go down for some walk & playground session.. =) We missed going downstairs so much..

Benson enjoyed himself so much.. After a while we head back before Ben is home because needed to cook dinner... ^^

Off he go..!

Weewee

Kids can be happy with easy stuff..