Greatest challenge in my Life now...

Now is the moment i face the greatest challenge.. Because of i'm so lacking of good or more hours of sleep.. i started to get depress.. because Benson have been waking up numbers of time during the middle of the night... & i'm starting to have lack of patient now... i know that as a mummy.. i need to be patient in everything.. & everything i face i must be strong.. but some time i feel weak too... be it mentally or physically... is a greatest challenge in my life now... keep telling myself i must be strong... & no matter what... this stage will pass.. but i feel upset at times.. 


Some mummies suggest me to change his FM.. because he might not like Friso 2 now that's y he is drinking so little.. i just start to try out Mamil Gold today for just 1 feed.. but still... he only drink 90 ~100ml... after a while.. i feed him some porridge.. since he rejected milk intake.. might be due to gum discomfort.. i don't know.. As a first time mummy i didn't know what to expect on every stage... i do read up & do research on internet... but of course in real life.. things can be quite different from expected... but luckly i have a understanding Husband that walking thru this stage with me hand in hand... he never blame me from getting angry or upset with Benson when i'm lack of sleep... of course i don't smack Benson hard.. i just smack him lightly.. because he is still a baby no matter what.. he does not understand what we mean or when we r angry... So now i have decided to feed him more solid a day.. since he love solid so much... at least it will keep him full... but milk is still important for them.. because is still their main food till they r older... 


I'm counting my blessing everyday that i have the chance to stay home with my boy & having a few wonderful mummies friends that is very supportive & when i need someone to talk to or vent out my unhappiness...& of course my hubby is always around for me when i needed him.... 


Sometime i will have this unfair thinking.. as i do compare Benson with other babies.. because most of them by age of 7 months does sleep longer or sleep thru the night... & i do have mummies friends even when their gal is already 18 months & still wakes up every 2 ~ 3 hours for milk... i don't know what give them strength to go so far.. 18 months is a long time... of course they talk happily about it.. but who knows what happen at home? Well.. lately because of my tiredness.. i started to scream at Benson... & because my cough is so bad it affected my sleep.. & even my wisdom tooth gum is giving me a hard time...


I pray to God everyday to give me the energy & the strength to deal with all the problem i face.. i hope he answer my prayer everyday...