Sometime all sort of question will pop thru my mind when the night is quiet or When Benson is having nap & I have some free time... Question came into my mind was:
Q 1: Am i a Good mummy?
A: Sometime i feel that i'm too short tempered & not patience enough for my boy... I flare up easily.. But i did try to be more calm now... I'm still trying hard to be more patience with my child...
Q 2 : Will Benson feel Lonely?
A: This question came when we decided not to have anymore children.. Sometime i do feel lonely for him when he is at home... I do make an effort to do lots of things with him... But still.. it doesn't feel as fun as playing with children his age.... I do feel guilty... =.=
Q 3: Did i neglect Benson in some way?
A: Yes i do sometime tell him to play himself first when i need to cook or finish some unfinished work on hand.. I'm also quitting my bad habit of using iphone so often.. Just wanna spend more time on Benson... Now most of the time i wait till he nap or sleep or busy with his cartoon then i use a little while...
Q 4: R we staying home too often?
A: Yes.. I feel that we stayed home on " Weekdays " too much... Sometime the sun & heat really makes me think twice before bringing him to the playground... But I'm also working hard on that...
I just hope that Benson enjoy his childhood... Sometime is the guilt that leads us to have all this question popping inside our brain.... But I'm hopeful for changing to a better me as a mummy...
What is in your mind today?
6 comments:
We constantly battle with such questions as a mom when the going is tough. But as long we don't give up being a mom, then I think we are great! :D You are great!
Thanks For ur encouragement Adeline! Yes we will never give up!
Wendy,
I think that as long as you realise that effort is needed - half the battle is won.
There is never a 'perfect' situation for anything... we will always have to confront 'what ifs' and 'maybe' and 'if only' in life. It's up to you, however - how you choose to live life. You can question yourself and make yourself feel upset, or you can concentrate on being a good Mummy to Benson the only way you know how.
Never compare! There are no perfect mothers... just those who try their best.
Motherhood is a constant change in our perceptions and we often question if we are giving enough. There is never a right or wrong answer but what is best in the given situation at that given point in time.
I'm sure you are doing your best for your child.
Regina,
I agree with u that there is no prefect mother in this world.. maybe i just pushing myself too much at times... & also might be due to lately i keep flare up at Benson that't why i will feel even more bad for him.. just hope that i will change for the better... =)
Dominique,
i always feel that what i given will never be enough... Too be honest.. i haven even create any home activity to make it seem interesting for Benson.. But I telling myself i must start next week... as is a very good chance due to the school holiday!
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