Guilty

Have been feeling guilty of alot of things lately... Because sometime there is so much work at home & with my terrible headache.. My mood swing is bad.. Negative feeling is sinking in me towards Benson... Luckily Benson communcation skill is picking up quite ok... so I'm able to understand what he wants 90% of the time.. Haha... Lately he is also trying to test my limit by asking me to make milk for him but when i wanna pass to him.. He refused to hold on to it & drink... Which makes me angry at times.. sometime i just ignore him.. Then he realise that i'm not in the mood for his trick .. he will come say " mama , neh neh " ... Anyway back to the topic abt guilt... I haven been playing with him alot as housework then cook dinner... I only be able to really sit down is after dinner time.. so i'm trying my very best to do colouring, singing & play toys with him... Then after a quick shower is time to prepare for Bed... Because next day have to wake up at 8am for school... We tried to train him to sleep as early as possible.. But always end up he sleep at 10.30pm.. But still able to wake at 7.45am ~ 8am for his school.. Have not being bringing him out for this week... due to my bad headache... So Tomorrow Hub is planning to bring him to " Thomas Train " Movie.. Is the first time we bring Benson for a movie.. I'm stress.. But I'm positive about it... =) After movie will be wild wild wet for a swim Then back home to nap... After nap will be going east coast park for cycling... Gonna be a long & fun day tomorrow.. ^^ Can't wait !

" A Lovely Boy who always giving his charming smile "