Baby Benson Is 1 Week old already....

Hi all.. sorry been so long that i never have the time to update my blog because me & hubby is really tired this few days... & we r trying to cope with our new lifestyle with our Benson... ^^ Benson is 1 week old already.. time seem to pass faster with him around.... cause almost every 2~3 hrs feeding time.. & diaper change.... hee so much to do.... even in th e middle of the night.... because Baby Benson is still newborn... so he cannot different night & day... but he is consider very guai liao... so i must say that we r very lucky.... when we talk to him he will smile @ hubby & me... but too bad... me & hubby try to take photo of Benson smile... but when we take our hp to take pic... he seem like knowing & don't wanna smile liao.... he loves to listen to us talking to him when he is awake... & also he love to sleep while drinking his milk & shitting time.... haha.. so cute right??? Hubby & I really fall in love with Our Benson Boy liao... Thank god for giving us such a wonderful boy.. & of course i wanna thank god for letting me to have such a wonderful hubby as well... hubby have took 1 week leave to help me around...i can see that he is also very tired... i feel heartpain also... but hope we will get better & cope with our new lifestyle well.... =) my wound is still quite painful.. i hope it will heal very soon... as i find that walking & sitting is a pain to me also... now still on medication to numb the pain....

There is time that i feel very blue during this period... & i did cry almost a few days liao... i don't know y i tear so much... when i didn't burp Benson well... & causing him have Colic... i cried also.... when hubby ask me " R u OK?? " i cry as well... i hope this period will be over soon.. hubby is very supportive.. but i know that when i cry... hubby feel stress & sad also to see me like this... so i must keep trying to think positive... cause there is people who loves & care for me... Like hubby... ^^ i now also will try to ask more help from my mum & granny.... i used to be close up to myself with Baby Benson in the room.. refuse to get any help... which cause me to feel depress... so now i try to open up myself & Benson to my family more...

( To Hubby.... I really wanna thank u for helping me been thru so much... even when i cry for no reason in this period of time.. u show me ur tender loving care.... i already felt better... so i hope that u won't feel stress also... ^^ i will try to be as positive as possible... & i know with u... i can make it thru... is just the matter of time.... Hubby I love U... & of course Our Benson Boy too... )

Jaudice.... Benson still having Jaudice problem... =( so sad... always see the nurse taking blood from his heels... first time makes me wanna tear when i saw Benson in pain & cry.... we have been running around to polyclinic for his Jaudice check... next wednesday will be another check.. i hope that is the last one also.. cause is really tiring.. & also not good for Benson to always go polyclinic... cause there is alot of germs there also... somemore Benson is still a newborn... so i don't want him to get sick also...

Now i try to feed Benson a little of my Breastmilk.... but it seem low supply liao... so i will try to latch him on tmr to boost up the supply... now i only pump out 2 times a day.... & also feed him Fm also.... but hope my milk supply will carry on as long as possible.... Hubby just bought a breastpump for me... =( Hubby have been spending alot of money lately.. i feel so heartpain for him... i wish that i can help him in any way.... =( but feel helpless.... & also scare we r a burden for him.... haiz... Hubby sayang wor.... i already try to save as much liao... even u always say u can handle.... of course i trust that u can... but i just feel pain lor...

My First Breastmilk....

I hope that Benson will be a very healthy Boy & of course a happy boy.. i love his smile.. is so charming & sweet.... ^^

Yawn!!